Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Love Letter???

An Inspiration for my song writing...
What do you think? I created it out myself.
A Love Letter that I've written:

You know that I always love dancing. You know that. I’m sure you know that. Don’t avoid. This is important. I’m sure you understand, just like you like music. You treat music as your life, above everything else. Even when you choose your partner, you expect her to be musically inclined, to flow with you in the area of music. You want her to have the same kind of passion as you. Do you know that it is very difficult to find someone like this? It’s very difficult. No one can be as perfect as this or as you think.

I won’t try to be someone you like. I’ll just be myself. You like it or you don’t. This is me. Everyone is uniquely created for a purpose, not for you. I’m sorry to say that. But, you just have to know that. Still, I just want to tell you that I love you no matter what. Just don’t try too hard to change me like that. Love you… & I always do…


**The first edition of this song 喜欢你 is posted up in my music blog:
http://www.adaliaballad.blogspot.com/
Tuesday 31st March 2009 Post

>>Hopefully, it'll be completed one day with the melody & recording, so that my friends can listen. Looking forward to it... :)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

My Baby Nephew -Latest!!!

Oh he is just so cute!!!! So chubby!!!! Can't stand it!


My 2nd time carrying him...


Baby Chua was smiling at his mum!

Oh my! He just dosed off before he finished the last drop of the milk...
He sleeps a lot huh...


Baby Chua was looking at "Xiao Yi" (me) & posing for me as I took his photo!


Amazing Cute Little Baby!!!
He's definitely very adorable!

Yamaka Wa Super -Tibits

@Yamaka Wa Super
These are what I had bought yesterday before the "Sleek" meeting.
For people who know me, they will know that I'm always into Japanese stuffs.
I just love it man! Their goodies are so interesting.
If I can, I may buy one basket of tibits home. But I can't, so only these two. Haha...
[Japanese stuffs are not cheap...]


Let me introduce to you...
(picture below)
"KOTOBUKI" AZUKI DORAYAKI


I was attracted to this because it looks like the "tong luo shao"

-fav. snack of Doraemon.

Hahaha.... :)

Moreover, it's red bean... I think I'll like the taste of it.

Next
"MEIJI" HOKKAIDO POTATO CHEESE & SALT


Why I buy this?

Hahaha.... I was simply just attracted by the package.

Don't you think the picture look nice?

It seems like it is very nice to eat.

Hahahaha....... :)

& I like potato chips or potato!

Hmmm...... Yummy!!!

Don't bear to eat it yet... I'll bear with it first. :p

Sunday, March 22, 2009

舞林大道 冠軍總決賽 Maniac@最後戰役

This is the dance which give me very deep impression of Maniac. They are realy girl power! Very fantastic! They're really good!!!! I can't imagine girls can dance like they do! Normally, girls find difficulty in freeing themselves out very much in the dance, especially hip hop...

舞林大道 - Gino+Maniac-




Oh man! They rock! They are really hot! I can't stand it already...

I really admire Maniac to be able to dance with such great force & so free out! How I wish I can dance like them... I never able to dance hiphop well & free out yet. Quite stuck to my past dance style - Modern dance. I wish to try more different dances. Like Hiphop, Reggae...etc. I like street jazz very much. I enjoyed dancing that! It is a mixture of jazz & hiphop... Quite near to my style.

God, when can I dance again! I want to dance like Maniac!

Romeo & Juliet




Yeah yeah! I found the song Kissing You by Des'ree in the OST of "Romeo & Juliet"!

[Listen to Track 1 of my playlist.]

Till now, I still like this story by William Shakespeare. Especially the movie played by Leonardo Dicaprio & Claire Danes in 1996. Have you watched this movie?

Friday, March 20, 2009

让一切从新开始

一切的后悔,不如意,不开心,失望于难过。。。

我们统统都把它们给抛开掉!

Let's forget about everything & start anew!
If we're unable to let go of the past, we can't move forward or have more new ideas!
If we didn't make it last time, lets believe we can do it this time!
Always be positive about things, not negative.
Negativitism will only hold you back & obstruct your way!
That' s the devil's plan! Don't fall into it!
If you can't see your path, use a touchlight to shine.
If you feel doubt, try to look forward what is ahead waiting for you.
Everything is gonna be alright. No trial & tribulation in this world can last for a long time.
There's no need to worry!

Let's do our best in our everything! Success is in our hands!
"Break the wall of limitations & obstructions!"
Nothing should be able to stop you for what you want to do as you think it in your mind!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

My Voice Is Back!

Hi frenz,

Don't worry about me. My voice has come back. I can talk normally although not in the best condition yet. I'm still taking my medication. I believe by Friday, I should be fine.

Thanks much for those who are in concern about me. :)

Love ya all,
Christina

Monday, March 16, 2009

Thoughts When No Voice

I’ve searched the whole world looking for you. I’ve loved you so much. I’ve experienced the love you have given. It’s you who has helped me release the confidence in me. But, now…..

I’ve lost my voice………………………….
May be not all, but it’s good enough to make me feel… It’s sad to not able to talk comfortably with my own original voice & even to sing properly a note… I guess I just have to rest my voice completely for the next few days.

During sound check yesterday, teacher came to me & told me not to strain my voice.
“Christina, you don’t have voice right? Later, don’t stain your voice ah.”
Actually, I didn’t plan to sing. I was just to drop by at the choir to see them since I can’t sing (what I was thinking that time). Justin persuaded me to serve as they need people for choir. Ok, ok… I’m willing to serve.

This time losing my voice is due to my sore throat & cold. It makes me want to protect my voice even more, makes me want to train myself up even more to sing well. I may not become a BV or a singer one day, but I just want to sing well with well protected vocal, right singing technique, to protect the talent that was put in me.

Suddenly, I remember something that teacher had said to me when we were talking casually during her dinner before vocal lesson.
“You dance? Why not continue to dance or take up some lesson on it?”
Yes, in my heart, I wanted to but I really don’t have the time & money for it. What I had replied teacher that time was just a console to me. Or perhaps, it was just excuses… I don’t want to have any regret in my life. I want to live it to the fullest with my talents. What should I do?

Friday, March 13, 2009

I'm Sick...

I was feeling very drowy the whole of yesterday. I was sleeping, watching Oran High School (half drowsy, half awake), then sleeping again throughout the whole night till morning. I can't believe I actually missed my dinner!!! Oh, my dear dinner......

I woke up early today, at around 5 plus in the morning (which is abnormal for me). I went to work. I was awoke the whole morning to do my work, then I went drowsy again after I had taken the drowsy medicine in the afternoon. Thank God I have not much work today! Or else... ...

Oh, why do I fall sick again? I checked my employee's portal. I realized I had MC (Medical Leave) just on January. I fall sick again?? I really need to build up my body to have a stronger body. "Our body is the temple of the Holy Spirit."

"Eat healthy, Exercise more & Extravagant prayer -The Triple Es!"
-Christina

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Yosephinaさん と Edisonさんへ

Today, Yosephina & Edison came to my house to watch Oran High School (Animae). I actually felt very happy that they came. I had enjoyed their accompany. Watching the animae with them is so funny. They have very interesting flow with each other that it doubles the effect of their responses to the show. So funny.... I think I will not get that if I'm watching alone.
Thanks very much guys...! You guys really brightens up my day!

Do stay happy & cheerful always no matter what you face in life!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

A Saturday Again

So fast, a week has passed. I still have many things not done yet. Sometimes, just the thought of it, I feel very tired. Frustrations will come up. I'll feel that I'm not accomplishing things... It is not a good sign. If I want a breakthrough in the year 2009, I must do something quick & different from last year. I must be fast to make my decision. I can't be always wavering or being indecisive. I don't like the feeling of being indecisive. I don't like the feeling of being messy. Now, this is exactly what I feel. It makes me feel very confused & frustrated about myself & my life.

I don't like myself to be like this. I'm feeling terrible already. I'm angry about myself. What exactly do I want to bring myself out? What am I showing to others? What is my image? What are the many things that I can't make it yet? There're so many, so many... I'm feeling very tired, very tired now... Yet, I can't give up. This is my life! Oh God... Please help...

I don't like not being listened to. I need a listening ear! At home, it is only left with me & my parents. Listen, listen, listen! Can someone just listen & stop talking!

"Knowing what you need to do & what you are doing is important. Press in hard to make sure you achieve your goals is a MUST!"
-Christina Adalia

创意

创意

每一个人在出生之前, 创造的时候, 身体里都被放进了一种很特别的因素 叫做"创意"。

至于这个"创意"要怎么用, 就要看个人怎么去发掘了。
你相信吗? 你的每一个细胞都存在着"创意"。在某一方面会比较多, 在某一些会比较少。每一个人都不一样。 所以, 并不是在每一样事情上我们都会做地特别好。每一个人都有自己的强项与优势。所以, 人与人之间是互要互铺的 (互铺对方的缺点与弱点)。这样, 我们才不会变得很自私, 独立 和远离人群。我们被创造是为了集体生活的, 而不是单独一个人。如果你是一个很孤僻的人, 那岂不是在违背神原本的意思。做人需要那么孤僻吗? 岂不是很闷? 是什么原因造成孤僻呢?

我本身是不喜欢一个人的。我很怕孤单。一个人的感受是不好受。如果能的话, 我当然要选择和一群人在一起。尤其我又是那么爱说话的人…
神在我身上放了很多的"创意", 而这是我非常感谢的。我从来都不知道我拥有着那么多的创意, 直到近几年来, 我才一一发掘出来。现在的我很开心地在用我的"创意"去做很多很多的事情,生活变得非常地充实。感觉很棒!

今天, 我的区长叫我一起想点儿点子来筹备某某事情。这需要我在美术上的创意。虽然已经很久没有画画了, 但创意还在。只要有灵感, 没有什么是做不出来的。都说了, 创意是很早以前就种在我们身体里的一个种子。它只会保持一样或是不断地成长, 而不会离开我们的。重要的是我们一定要不断地用它。已经给你的, 为何要浪费呢? 人生可以更多姿多彩, 为何要博走自己本来应有的潜能呢? 快点儿去发掘它吧!


"人生不止是你想象的那样而已, 我们必须不断地发掘它。人生只有那么短暂, 为何不好好地活个痛快呢? -发掘你所未知的。"
----佩玉名言

Thursday, March 5, 2009

我对爱

对爱
我不知道爱是什么, 也不曾真正体验过.
我不知道它几时会来, 我也已经等到累了。
我期待的不是一个白马王子, 也根本都没有白马王子这回事。
你相信吗?
一个人的生活可以更精彩, 并不是一定要有一个伴。
就算你的人生注定要有一个陪伴你终生的一个伴侣, 那也不会影响什么。
我的想法可以很奇怪, 你可以不用认同。但,那都是我所想的。
一个人的生活, 一个人的精彩。
人生如此短暂, 何必为了有没有伴侣而操心。
我认为该来的, 终究都会来的。虽然, 人家说爱情是要追求,才会有的。但是, 现在的我想先享受一个人的生活。以后的事, 以后在说吧。是我绝望了, 还是我累了? 我不知道。总之, 我还没有遇到, 就对了。

有人叫我写下我的要求, 然后祈祷。是该这样做吧。要些什么好呢? 电眼, 挺挺的鼻子, 壮壮的身材, 温柔体贴, 善解人意, 典型的大好男人, 不要大男人主义便可... 是这样吗?

你知道吗? 其实女人并不会像男人一样那么在乎外表。女人可以很简单到她只想要一个会爱她, 照顾她和体贴她的人。只要没有外遇, 她应该会爱着她的他一辈子。

发现爱
最近, 我发现了我的爱... 原来, 我比想象中更爱音乐了! 或许, 是一天比一天更爱了。 每一次接触, 我都很开心。就好像人生变得都没有烦恼了。我是那么地享受着... 渐渐地, 我开始对自己在音乐方面有了要求。如果我没能达到我的要求, 我便会很难过, 并且会懊恼着自己。(现在的我, 正在摸索当中。)


献给老师的话
我非常感谢老师的教诲。她不只是教我唱歌, 她也分享了一些她的人生经验和给了鼓励。感谢她对学生得相信,不放弃与不嫌弃。感谢她在各方面的栽培。感谢她的严格与要求。非常感谢她的引导。其实我觉得她是最棒的! 虽然我没有有过别的声乐老师, 但是我觉得有她就够了!


对音乐
我在音乐里找到了"爱情", 找到了不是任何人能够给得陪伴, 找到了人生中的快乐与享受。它所带来的幸福, 并不是每一个人能够体会得到的。我第一次爱自己, 第一次找到的自信都是在音乐里找到的。我尤其最享受在音乐里偏偏起舞得感觉。虽然我曾经跳了几年的舞, 但是我还是觉得没能继续是种可惜与遗憾。我是多么地想继续阿! 不过, 能这么样呢? 现实世界往往就是那么地残忍。

失去音乐, 我的生命将会变得没有意义。我的人生就会失去了希望。它是我无法獲缺的。我不能失去它!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

心情日记

我最近是怎么了? 心情超不好的.
妈妈, 你是怎么了? 难道是我现在才认识你吗? 我感觉我其实不曾认识我妈. 她为什么会变成这样呢? 我已经不知道要如何面对她了. 是她把事情弄成这样的. 她的不对, 她永远也都不会承认, 也不会面对. 是错, 是对, 她永远也不会分清. 她只会傻傻地跟着别人. 就算被她的姐姐欺负, 她还是静静的. 在她的女儿, 我的面前, 她却是另外一面了. 是因为她是我的母亲, 她可以在我之上, 是唯一能够抬头的机会, 她这样对我吗? 她的心里不平衡? 所以 她把她所忍受的不满都发泄在她的女儿身上?
她的不讲理, 她的不愿听别人心里所想的, 她的不肯面对现实是因为这个原因?

我尝试过很多次跟她沟通, 但却碰了钉子. 为什么? 人与人之间的关系是需要好的沟通来联系的. 但, 她却不会. 她一天到晚只会怪罪别人. 别人所说的, 她从不听进去. 每一次, 她 都只会麻木地为自己辩护, 把所有的不是都推给别人. 这种习惯是好的吗? 这种态度是好的吗?
好不容易她能真的坐下来去听别人所要说的. 她只会在那里忙着辩护, 根本都没有耐心和有心去听. 她也只会哭. 过后, 却什么东西也没做. 一点都没有诚意, 根本都没有听进去麻! 这样问题怎么会解决得了阿? 问题又不是只出现在别人的身上!好讨厌她这个样子!要去爱她, 关心她, 去孝顺她, 就便得超难的了. 我已经不知道何为"孝顺". 我不是一个孝顺的女儿. 我也不懂得如何去孝顺. 这样的我, 大概是没有人爱了吧. 男生都要会孝顺父母的女生... 我看来是没有希望了. 美貌并不代表所有的一切.
我承认我变了.我变得没有以前那样温柔, 那样好脾气, 那样有可能做一个孝顺的女儿了. 我变了. 是好,是坏, 我不知道. 我只知道我并喜欢现在的我.
我要变, 但是, 怎么变呢?

*是发生了许多事情. 但, 不是最近的事... 它是累积下来的. 我还OK, 你们别担心我. :)