Funny Thing @Renault's BBQ!

Dressing Up the Renault Model



How can they dress up the model like this!!!! Super sensored & RA rated!!!! So funny!
There're many other parts of this video but too RA rated already! Hahaha.... Can't help it but to laugh loudly as I watch the video! Hahaha.... Real fun @ the BBQ company's gathering! Fun gathering & connecting to colleagues & bosses! No word can describe the feeling @ the BBQ.

I realize sometimes it can be more fun to be early at the meeting place or even involved in the preparation! You don't need to be rewarded but you will still enjoy the process! hahaha.... :P

New Haircut

Just have a hair cut.
I have my hair cut shorter to shoulder length with some trims.
My fringe cut layered slant.
I love it! So neat now! :)
I can use my hairstyler to curl my hair to make more layers or straighten my hair...
All kind of things I can do with my hair.
I want to grow my hair long. Don't wanna cut short for the moment.
Let's see how long my hair can get until...
hahaha.... :)

The Experience Being Christ

Listen to his experience acting as Jesus in "The Passion of the Chirst".



It is a different view looking at Christ. I can't believe Christ had to go through all these just for us!

Chris Tomlin's "Lifted Me Up"

To my beloved CG guitarists:
Guys, "Lifted Me Up" is this song! Sigh... I thought you guys will know. Nvm...
May be we'll try it one day...

Zone Outreach Next Sun's Guest Appearance

Hi all, this is a glimpse of 大风吹 during the final of Project Superband! In case, you guys don't know who they are.

They will be having a guest appearance in our Zone Outreach next Sun in Jurong West St 91, L4!
What a priviledge!!! :) Guys, look forward to it! Bring along all your friends! :)


非常SuperBand, 大风吹-伯乐




大风吹-第一个清晨

Something Great is Going to Happen!

I'm expecting some changes very soon. No matter it is spiritually or personal growth. I'm looking forward to it!

There are many things in my mind right now. Many plannings... Give me another 6 months, I believe I will be able to see some results. This time, I must succeed! No time to loose...

I was watching "射雕英雄传". & there was this scene that really inspires me a lot. Even to death, we fight till the end! So, I must have the 13 soldiers' spirit. They are so royal to the prince that they fight to their death, just to protect him. I was so amazed by that! That's the spirit, man!!! Whatever you want to do, you must press on to the last, fight to the last!

Remember:
"Nothing is impossible!"
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!"
"Not by might, nor by power, but by the spirit of God!"

*Therefore, let's be full of expectations for the coming changes!!!

Eugene Chua on 18.04.09

My Cute Little Baby Nephew doing exercises!!! Super Active Boy!!!

Daily Routine

I just finished checking my email, MSN my friend, facebooking, twitting... This is like a daily routine if possible. It seems boring but, actually it is quite interesting!

• Checking email

Finding out what others have sent to me. Checking out what updates there is. Checking if Miho has sent me an email or replied me. Clearing email...

• MSN

Fun! Talking to friend through MSN is fun! I always enjoy connecting with my dear friends! I want to be stay connected.

• Facebooking

Interesting... Browse updates of my friends, read comment, messgaes, do quizes, play games, earn "money" & etc....

• Twitting

On Twitter, updates all my friends about me & my life... Now, living in this busy world, it is so difficult to meet up with all my friends... This twitting thingy is really of a great help! :)

So amazed of the high tech generation now! Everything is ONLINE now! Wow wow wow! :)

Facing Myself Truthfully

“I am actually a loner… I am just all alone!”

Despite the fact that I may not look like, I am actually very lonely. I am afraid of being lonely because I had it too much already. That’s why I am easily an attention seeker. Even till now, I think I am still seeking for attention, may be not as much as in the past. In my heart, there’s this corner which is very lonely & insecure. I am always longing for someone to fill it in. But, no one comes. My family, my close friends… I feel very sad, rejected, disappointed easily when I start to think that I have hope in someone who can fill up that corner. I feel I really can’t help it but to think too much of a certain things. I really want to stop all this. I am very tired. My heart is tired. I wait & wait, & nothing happens. I am thinking why I can’t be just all alone instead of having hope in others that gives disappointments only. I can do all things alone. It is freer this way. Perhaps, I was being neglected too often since young that I am feeling this way now. I believe I felt I am very insignificant in the past. That’s what caused the low self-esteem in me. God can come in & fill it but, not just that. I need to do something about it to overcome. What do I need to do?

“Please, please, if you can, please love me more! Don’t let me go! Never leave me behind alone! Please don’t!!!!!”

I used to be a very low self-esteem girl. I often stayed late at my friend's house & never want to go home early. When I received my PSLE results, it was not good. I was afraid I would be scolded by my mum. I was disappointed with myself. I thought I could get more than 200 aggregate marks which was also a target my form teacher that time had set. I felt I had let my teacher down. I felt I really didn't want to go home & faced all the things. I hid myself in my best friend's house & played. My mum searched high & low for me. She called all my friends.

Finally, when I reached home, she kept asking me for my results. I didn't want to share it with her. I thought I could trust my second sister. So, I told her. But, she ended up telling my mum about it. I guessed she couldn't stand her pressing in that time. I couldn't blame her. But, she had lost my trust for her. Eventually, I became very lonely. I felt I couldn't trust anyone at home. There was no one to talk to either. I felt very trapped. I felt very hurt & sad. I couldn't believe a home could be like that.

Through my second sister, I started writing the diary. I wrote all my feelings & thoughts in there. I even drew some pictures inside. (Remember I was still a primary school student.) That was a channel for me to frustrate out my feelings blotted inside.

When I was in secondary school, matters worsen. I realized friends couldn't help me, writing diary couldn't help me. I became very short tempered. I couldn't stand a bit of my mum's nag. I couldn't stand a bit of my elder sis always so fierce to me, always saying all kinds of hurting & discouraging words. I couldn't stand my mum being controlling. I couldn't stand my elder sis being controlling unreasonably. I couldn't stand anything! I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to handle all those emotions I had. I got into depression.

I couldn't handle anything. I didn't understand why even small matters, I could be scolded. It seemed like everything I did I would be scolded. Nothing I did was right. To them, I was just a wrong wrong wrong! My sis shouted at me. My mum scolded & nagged at me. There were many times I slammed the door behind me to try to avoid them. I put my hands on my ears to try not to listen to the noises. I banged my head to the wall, trying to release the pain in my heart. I tried all things but they all didn't work! I cried, & I cried, & I cried non-stop. & they just didn't care. Sometimes, my elder sis even shouted outside the room to ask me to stop crying. I mean I was so sad, so hurt. That was the only way I could do at that time to release my feelings out. She asked me to stop?? Was she crazy?! I even had to cried into my pillow because of her.

There were times I stood in front of the small balcony where we hang our clothes. I was thinking if life was like that, so meaningless, why should I be still living in this world. I thought of jumping down from that 12 storey(my house). In the end, due to lack of boldness, I didn't do it.

At that time, I felt I was not loved by my family at all. Every one of them ignored me. Not one, had given me the attention that I had needed. All I had received was just rejections & hurting words. There was lots of struggles in me. I thought ending my life will end all these things. I thought.

Then, I thought I should live stronger to show them, without them, I could still be better! With this, I lived on. Although the same things continued again & again, but at least I still lived on. It could be also because I had dreams unfulfilled yet.

Years later...

I was in poly yr 1. The school just started. I met a friend coincidently consistently for one week at the bus interchange when I was on the way to school. She encouraged me to go to church. (That time I wore a cross quite often which caught her attention.) I was encouraged & I called my another friend that night as my friend(who encouraged me) is a Catholic. & that weekends, I attended church & received salvation at the altar call held by Pst Tan.

I didn't know why. I felt extremely relieved & safe at that time. I felt very refreshed & felt hope in my life. That night, I slept very peacefully first time in my life! I never had that feeling before! From that day onwards, I went to church week after week, week after week. & it continued till today, I am still attending church. I was even graduated from SOT in 2007! Oh my! Thank God for all that!

If without God, I can't be who I am today. I may even not be writing this story at all. My life now has become fruitful. I know what I want to do & I am pursuing it. I see my dreams fulfilled one by one every year. I am simply very happy. I am no longer that low-self esteem, but a more confident woman now. I am even more optimistic than ever. I even have the ability to encourage & help other people who is in need!

Most importantly, my depression is gone! Ever since I had attended church, my mindset has changed. I become more & more positive in life. I am gladful for all the beloved CG members who were with me during my difficult times, even though they may not know what important role they had played in my life at that time. I felt love from the CG & became more open to people. I learnt how to express myself better. I even become more & more sociable with people! That is so amazing! I can't imagine that I can do that! I was so introvert last time! My smile has become more. It is more natural. I do not need to fake it at all.

After knowing God, I started to believe that surely nothing is impossible. I took my O'level English again that year, & I scored B3 from a D7!!!! Because of that belief, & I pressed on & I had made a miracle for myself! I also thank God for all my CG members who had prayed for me & given me the support.

I tell you. I can't live without God! Without Him, I won't know how interesting & fun life is! Without Him, I won't find release & peace! Without Him, I won't be who I am today! Without Him, life has never be the same! I thank God I am still living! Thank God for saving me! Thank God for given me a new life despite my incompleteness & imperfectness! All glory to God! :)

Questions, Tell Me What It Means About It~

I realized what I say is not being understood more & more. Sometimes I am thinking whether I’m with the right group of people. There are times that I want to deliver a certain message but come back being misunderstood. What is not right in there? Is it time that I should move on? I’ve been hearing the same thing being repeated to me many times recently. They are all from the leaders around me. That also reflects back to the vision that I had received years back. But, am I really able to do it? God, why will use someone like me who is just nothing but simple, & quite weak at times? I’m always shouting for help from you for everything. God, I really can do it this time? Like what my choir friend had said, if I don’t grab it now, the opportunity will just slip off. Just grab it? How?
I really need to go back to my source & start praying seriously about this. God, please show me your sign…

During these few days, many questions have been going through my mind. Questions like:

1. Why do all the girls attracted to one particular rose?
A. It is beautiful. B. She really likes it. C. Other girls like it too.

Which category will you fall under? I ask myself this question & I’m still wondering which category I fall under…

2. You walk toward this particular rose. You almost reaching it but then you realize there is a board in front of it, written: “This is belonged to Sue.” The feeling of disappointment immediately filled your whole heart. Your heart sank. You thought you can get this rose but yet it is someone else’s.

In your heart, there’re two options:
A. To snatch the rose. B. To hide the rose. C. Just forget about the rose.

Which category will you fall under? I think I’ll walk away sadly & tell myself to forget about it. My choice is C.

The reason why I chose C is because I never like to fight with other people for a thing, I don’t like to share with other people something I really call it precious & important & I believe I shouldn’t always be the one making the decision. I have to ask the rose who it wants to follow. This is the answer from my heart. Perhaps I cherish friendship more.

*If you understand what I mean about the two questions, please keep it to yourself. They’re parables that I’ve written so that not everyone will understand but only the ones who is really close to me do. :)

Handsome Suit -Japan Movie

What about watching this? Recently, there are really many interesting movies coming up!

Jackie Chan's Shinjuku Incident Trailer

Jackie Chan Shinjuku Incident Trailer 2009 High Quality

I'm thinking of watching this movie... Should I?

Busy, busy...

I have been busy with many things. There's still many things waiting for me to do. I have been very tired. How I wish my strength & capacity can expand. How I wish I can excel in times of busyness & time not enough... I'm expanding myself, preparing myself for something more & bigger ahead. When school starts, I wonder what will it be like. I must enjoy my every moment now before I will be too occupied with things. I must enjoy this every moment! :) :) Yeah...

I'm imperfect. I have many shortcomings & weaknesses... I want to change! Change, change, change... I don't want to be a perfect woman. I want to be a woman always following God's heart, always desire to change to be better! :)

Day Dreaming

I have been day dreaming. Day dreaming about things that have not happen or may not happen or will not happen. I have a "dream" but it is just a dream right now. I don't know whether it'll happen. I don't know what the people involved feel about it. I don't know what I should do or react to it. Sometimes, I just want to hide. But, does hiding helps? I don't want to avoid. But, what about the other party? May be it is just not meant to be. Perhaps, it is better to stay in this way. At least, the "dream" is not shattered. It seems like there's still hope. Is this self-denial?

I day dream a lot. Is that a source of my creativity? Will that be a source? My ideas often comes from all these day dreaming stories. Though they may not be real, but they're definitely great inspirations to my creations. I wonder when can I make a good packaging of all of my "day dreams". Ha ha... I wonder who will share the same "hobby" as me. I doubt many people can understand what I'm saying here. haha... That's not important. Most importantly is I don't stop creating... I can create!!! Thank God for creativity! :)

End of the Day before Knock off...

31st March 2009

It's end of the day. A time that I've been waiting for!

This is Christina in the office...

Oops! Without makeup...

I've finished my work for the day! What should I do now?

Hmmm... Take photos!!! hahaha..... :p

Or.............................

I go facebook, just like anyone else... hahaha... :P

Earn money, earn money... Hee hee hee....

Or....... see other ppl's facebook....

finding out what my friends are doing recently.........