"This is it! I'm not going to hold on to it anymore! Off you go..."
Having too many thoughts in mind can sometimes burst me up. Therefore, at times, I decide to give up some of the things in life. Those that I feel there's no point wasting my time on and I have to move on without it. I believe that God will provide the best for me. So, what for to worry about? May be after giving up on certain things, I'll gain much more? I may see something coming up that will shock me? Lotz of may be but full of expectations...
Busy... I shall keep myself busy for the time being. There're just so many things I want to do! :) "The best thing is I'm doing the things I enjoy doing!" -Thank God for that!!! :)
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
心情事簿
郁闷的心情把心里的所有的寂寞给表露了出来。
为什么呢？也许我怕别人知道我的寂寞吧。
是嫉妒还是羡慕？我不懂。我清楚地知道我要的是什么。
我也很清楚地知道眼前的并不是我要的。那，那有什么好难过得呢？
是太羡慕了吧？我知道十二月是没有什么好期盼什么事会发生。因为我知道两年前没有发生的事，大概这次也不例外吧。没有什么好期盼的。有时我在想，一个人安安静静地度过生日也并不是什么坏事。有时，人多了，会有点难过。那样，会更凸显心里头的寂寞。但，有时候，我却又不想一个人过。多么矛盾的心情阿！
今年的生日，我只想知道一个答案。上帝，你会在这个十二月给我这个我很在乎的答案吗？
生日是一件大事，是你活在这世界上的纪念日。我希望今年起码要有人真正知道我要的是什么吧。有时候，我是感激有人记得我的生日。有时候，我却会有点失落或失望。可能当中真的缺乏了什么吧。
今年的生日，我只需要一个答案就够了。亲爱的天父，你会给我一个答案吗？这个答案对我来说很重要，关系到我的生命那样重要。
有些东西我是看到了，但我选择了不去看它。因为我知道那并不是我要的。我绝对不能送出错的讯息，浪费了大家的时间。
什么乘读书的时候，在学校里多留意一下有什么和心意的。什么读书之于，也可以找一下。
再说吧。我还是好好地念我的书。我可是下定决心要好好地念书的！加油！
为什么呢？也许我怕别人知道我的寂寞吧。
是嫉妒还是羡慕？我不懂。我清楚地知道我要的是什么。
我也很清楚地知道眼前的并不是我要的。那，那有什么好难过得呢？
是太羡慕了吧？我知道十二月是没有什么好期盼什么事会发生。因为我知道两年前没有发生的事，大概这次也不例外吧。没有什么好期盼的。有时我在想，一个人安安静静地度过生日也并不是什么坏事。有时，人多了，会有点难过。那样，会更凸显心里头的寂寞。但，有时候，我却又不想一个人过。多么矛盾的心情阿！
今年的生日，我只想知道一个答案。上帝，你会在这个十二月给我这个我很在乎的答案吗？
生日是一件大事，是你活在这世界上的纪念日。我希望今年起码要有人真正知道我要的是什么吧。有时候，我是感激有人记得我的生日。有时候，我却会有点失落或失望。可能当中真的缺乏了什么吧。
今年的生日，我只需要一个答案就够了。亲爱的天父，你会给我一个答案吗？这个答案对我来说很重要，关系到我的生命那样重要。
有些东西我是看到了，但我选择了不去看它。因为我知道那并不是我要的。我绝对不能送出错的讯息，浪费了大家的时间。
什么乘读书的时候，在学校里多留意一下有什么和心意的。什么读书之于，也可以找一下。
再说吧。我还是好好地念我的书。我可是下定决心要好好地念书的！加油！
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
A Final Relief
Finally, I have finished my last TMA assignment!!! Oh Yeah.................................!!!!!!
Do you know what a big relief it is? I have been stressed over the assignments upon assignments for the past one month. Especially for this month, everything is very rushed. There are just so many things to rush for. Now, I just finished the last TMA, I still have ECA assignment, 5 quizes and 1 exam to clear before my semester ends. It is really not easy studying in the university. It is just so tough. No wonder there are some people say that it is not easy to be in the university. If you are in, you are real good! Wow! I want to be that "real good"! :D
I really love, love, love all my friends especially the "regulars" who commented on my facebook very often. I so appreciated all that you guys had responded or commented and all your encouragements! Thanks for standing with me, supporting me mentally! Thanks lotz! :D
What's next now? I wanna rest for a little while before I clear the rest of the stuffs before my semester ends. Jia you! Fighting! :DDDD
Do you know what a big relief it is? I have been stressed over the assignments upon assignments for the past one month. Especially for this month, everything is very rushed. There are just so many things to rush for. Now, I just finished the last TMA, I still have ECA assignment, 5 quizes and 1 exam to clear before my semester ends. It is really not easy studying in the university. It is just so tough. No wonder there are some people say that it is not easy to be in the university. If you are in, you are real good! Wow! I want to be that "real good"! :D
I really love, love, love all my friends especially the "regulars" who commented on my facebook very often. I so appreciated all that you guys had responded or commented and all your encouragements! Thanks for standing with me, supporting me mentally! Thanks lotz! :D
What's next now? I wanna rest for a little while before I clear the rest of the stuffs before my semester ends. Jia you! Fighting! :DDDD
Thursday, October 8, 2009
REpeat
Do you ever hate yourself for keep repeating the same mistake again? I have. It is just so irritating. I will keep wondering to myself why I keep doing it again and again and why I can’t change it once and for all. Many thoughts run through my minds causing a lot of frustrations in me. How do we change? How do we quit on our mistake and shortcomings?
“I’m late again!” “Ah, the same mistake again!” “I spoke the wrong thing again!” Do all these sounds familiar to you. The moment you speak out these sentences, condemnation, guilty, negative thoughts and etc. come to you all at once! This is simply unhealthy (psychologically)! But, instead of all these, what can we do to improve the situation? Do something!
We are to be convicted and willing to commit to do something about it. A plan must be drawn out and follow closely. Modify here and there as we go along. Write down what is to do when the expectation is not met. What is the Plan B? I believe the best guide is the “S.M.A.R.T.E.R.” goal card. Nothing is as clear as that. Let’s begin to pick up our pen again to plan for next year before this year end. Don’t wait, do it now! Or else, you’ll never do it! One thing is “Never Give Up!” You just have to persevere.
Different people have different way of executing the plans. I don’t know about you but for me, I need to see my goals “everywhere” in order for me to work it out. That’s mean papers pasting everywhere in my room! (Laughing) Let’s start planning once again, friends! Let’s do it together! :D
“I’m late again!” “Ah, the same mistake again!” “I spoke the wrong thing again!” Do all these sounds familiar to you. The moment you speak out these sentences, condemnation, guilty, negative thoughts and etc. come to you all at once! This is simply unhealthy (psychologically)! But, instead of all these, what can we do to improve the situation? Do something!
We are to be convicted and willing to commit to do something about it. A plan must be drawn out and follow closely. Modify here and there as we go along. Write down what is to do when the expectation is not met. What is the Plan B? I believe the best guide is the “S.M.A.R.T.E.R.” goal card. Nothing is as clear as that. Let’s begin to pick up our pen again to plan for next year before this year end. Don’t wait, do it now! Or else, you’ll never do it! One thing is “Never Give Up!” You just have to persevere.
Different people have different way of executing the plans. I don’t know about you but for me, I need to see my goals “everywhere” in order for me to work it out. That’s mean papers pasting everywhere in my room! (Laughing) Let’s start planning once again, friends! Let’s do it together! :D
Friday, October 2, 2009
A Passby Place
This is just a place I have to passby in order to reach the other end which is where I suppose to go. In another words, it is a bridge to my destiny. Throughout the past more than one year, I have learnt some things. For example, now I know how to use excel and simply love it! That is my greatest satisfaction I think. I have known friends in the workplace. Though I don’t really like some part of them, sometimes even don’t feel that I’m getting along well with them, but still, they have played a part in my life. I can’t change a person anyway. If people don’t want to change, there’s nothing you can do.
I’m wondering what is ahead of me. I’m full of expectation and visions about my future. It’s going to be a bright, bright future being a professional counselor! The first semester of the first year is about to end. I have finally got to know about counseling. It is not easy but yet, very exciting. I like the way how my tutor-lecturer said this “A Counselor has his very own unique language.” It makes me feel that as a counselor, we are different and we make a difference in people’s life. This motivates me a lot.
In the coming semester, it’ll be tougher and busier I suppose. Hopefully, I can take the core subject which I didn’t take this semester, together with the next semester core subject. I don’t think I want to drag my graduation. The best situation is to complete my degree in three years and continue at the fourth year for my degree honours. To achieve that, I need to work real hard. My aim is to score above grade 3.0. I think I’ll be safe if I can hit that target. Most important of all, I must catch something out of this whole course to equip myself well to be an effective counselor. “Fighting”, Christina!
*You may not understand what I’m writing especially at the beginning of this blog as some details can’t be added in here. Just treat that I’m speaking in parables. Haha… :P
I’m wondering what is ahead of me. I’m full of expectation and visions about my future. It’s going to be a bright, bright future being a professional counselor! The first semester of the first year is about to end. I have finally got to know about counseling. It is not easy but yet, very exciting. I like the way how my tutor-lecturer said this “A Counselor has his very own unique language.” It makes me feel that as a counselor, we are different and we make a difference in people’s life. This motivates me a lot.
In the coming semester, it’ll be tougher and busier I suppose. Hopefully, I can take the core subject which I didn’t take this semester, together with the next semester core subject. I don’t think I want to drag my graduation. The best situation is to complete my degree in three years and continue at the fourth year for my degree honours. To achieve that, I need to work real hard. My aim is to score above grade 3.0. I think I’ll be safe if I can hit that target. Most important of all, I must catch something out of this whole course to equip myself well to be an effective counselor. “Fighting”, Christina!
*You may not understand what I’m writing especially at the beginning of this blog as some details can’t be added in here. Just treat that I’m speaking in parables. Haha… :P
石欣卉 昨天
当我第一次听这首歌的时候，我几乎要哭了。它带给了我很多的回忆。歌词里写的感觉是那么的熟悉。这是石欣卉的故事吗？这首歌好痛哦。听得我都觉得心好痛。似乎在耳边，我能听见自己叫着自己“忘了过去吧。”就好像心里有一根刺插得很深，无法拔出。
（脑里不自觉地浮现出这些感想）“总以为不见面，就会没事。那知道心会更痛。想要放下，却放不下。就一直爱着没有回应的爱。无论多么想跟他说个什么，却总是说不出口。只能远远地看着他。我爱他的心情谁懂。紧紧地抓着一个没有结果的爱情。多么辛苦阿。这种心情谁懂。” 听着这首歌，想着过去，眼眶里便出现了泪水。我非常了解这种心情。我曾爱着别人无数次，但全都没有结果。爱得我也累了，毕竟已伤痕累累了。若要期盼着新的恋情，我不知道我会不会有信心。
有时，回忆起以前，我的心会觉得很空，很寂寞。我不明白为什么我期待的爱情总是不降临在我身上。是我不配的吗？我曾经这么想过。直到有一天，一个人告诉我这么一句话“你绝对是配得有一个很好的男人。你是一个好女孩。”虽然那时，说这句话的那个人正在拒绝我对他的爱恋，但，我却被这句话给感动至今。我感激他说了那么一句话。现在的我们是朋友，对我来说已足够了。我会找到那个配得我爱的那个人。我会幸福的。谢谢当初的你。我会幸福的。
以上是我有感而发所写出来的。甭担心我。那些已是过去式。现在的我很好，正等着命中注定的那个人出现。等待的时间里，我会努力准备好自己。一切担心与着急是没有必要的。就请周围的朋友与家人，别为我担心了。顺起自然就好。
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