Pondering...

I was thinking.... I'm of so good of criteria.... How can I not find a good partner?

But still, I'll be wondering why on earth will people reject a person like me? LOL! He missed a treasure, man! :P

Definitely, I'll find my "treasure" soon! Someone who is compatible and will not bully me! He who will take good care of me and allow me to take care of him... :)

Chance don't come twice. Once you miss it, means you miss it for sure. Cherish opportunities that come by and not miss it! I'm moving on... though heart is still aching. But still, I have to move on...

It's quite amazing about the feeling during this period of time. From "I can't put down" to "I don't bear to put down" to "I need to put down" to "I'll put down" to "I put down".... Amazing... Don't worry. I'll find someone else who knows how to cherish me & love me more! :)

经过

经过熟悉的地方，我想起他。经过靠近他家的地方，我想起他。

可以不要再想他了吗？很难过阿。。。

他对我的好，我很感激。可是，那会让我更难过。。。怎么办？

我还是觉得很可惜。。。真的不行吗？不会有可能吗？

目前为止，都好像是我单方面在决定怎样，就怎样。。。因为他并没有一个决定。只是一句“还没准备好”。

其实我满不舍得放弃的，但是这件事拖的太久也不好。难过是难过，但现在已好多了．已经不是我该那么主动的时候了．．．如果真的珍惜我，就要争取，而不是退缩．我相信我是值得的．若有人懂得珍惜．．．我尽量把心打开．．．

我是否太执著于一个人了？但，往往似乎没有结果．．．

我在看周围的草啦．．．看看吧．．．希望我的心能快点痊愈．．．

＊一颗受伤的心＊

失亿

一切选择放弃，放下，不再眷念。。。

刚开始，很不容易。但，因为有那么多好朋友的陪伴与鼓励，我比想象中来得快好多了。

虽然还没有完全从心里的痛复原，但至少现在我能勇敢的面对，不尴尬。一切就像是没有事发生似的。可能只有这样，朋友才做的下去。或许，这才是最好的决定。继续下去只是一种伤害。

一切的事情就忘了吧。就当作失亿了。

也许他不能，但我得做到！因为受伤的人是我。。。

他被影响的程度多少，我不知道，也不想知道。因为绝对不会比我多。

他的固执，让我在想能带他到多远，多久的将来。不是在骂他，只是好奇。

也或许，那只是他的逃避，他嘴硬心软罢了。

我想了解他， 但一切已太迟了。他真的还没准备好。。。也很不会处理感情的问题。

虽然早就知道这件事，但我还是一头栽了下去。好傻哦。。。

放弃了这棵树，外面还有很多棵好树。但，我绝对不会找代替品。给我一点时间休息一下。。。

当我休息够了，神阿，会给我一个完美的答案吧？我的期限只有三年。三年后，结婚。我不能浪费任何的时间。女人的青春有限。

好东西

好的东西是值得等的。如果真的是你所要的，就去争取吧！

如果真的属于我的，他怎样跑，也跑不掉的。哈哈。。。 开玩笑的。。。

我觉得一切以平常心看待，日子会比较好过。

虽然现在的心情是平静多了，但是还会常常想起。。。那张脸还是会偶尔出现在我的脑海里。

不过，这个很难控制吧。。。

（最近，有些烦恼。在加上，在考试期间。会有一点点的压力。。。）

感激他的简讯。有让我感觉到心情好多。一个简单的简讯与关心真的让我看了，不自觉地笑了！谢了！:D

Our Friendship

I had loved you with all my heart... & I have no regrets... for my love for you is true... It had been too long a 5mths for us... thou it didn't work out... it is still really nice to see you, talk to you, go out with you again... Yes, we were once close to each other... Things are different now... it's okay... At least we still talk to each other... still hanging out together with the other friends... :)

Yesterday's searching for makan place is sort of nice (enjoyable) moment for me.... LOL... But, we still couldn't find our seats... :P Nice to have common good friends between us, whom they unknowingly helps to pull us back to our normal friendship again.... Great! I won't want to loose you as a friend... & I mean it... :) Thank God too! :)

Talking to Myself

Talking to myself amazing! Sometimes we just need some time for ourselves rather always keeping ourselves busy with many things & never ending.... :D I'm doing okay.... Exam is just next week! Exciting! :P

Work

I'm forced to master the skills of swollowing my tears... At Work, it's full of contradictions, helplessness, emotions, sandwiched experiences & so on & so on.... Sometimes, though how much you want to help, but you just can't do anything about it... Sigh... tt's wk, tt's life.... :l Nonetheless, some of my colleagues do help me a lot in my work. :) Some.... just showing temper.... :l

But 2 prawn crackers frm Cafe aunty makes my day! Thank God for His timely consoling to my soul! *touched* :)

自由了！

这次，我真的自由了！我终于做出了一个决定。而且，还是很确定的。原来，到头来并不是我想象的那样。不过，我还是会相信神会给我一个最棒的。因为，我是最棒的阿！哈哈。。。:D

结论

想太多。。。我也累了。。。睡吧！

他没事了！

Feels relieved.... He's fine! After he had done the X-ray, it shows no fracture. Instead, there is tendon strain and a little tear at the knee.... But still, he needs to rest well, not to exert too much on his knee... I can't understand why he still drives... Sigh... He's going out tonight somemore.... Sigh sigh.... 拿他没有办法。。。I'm super worried for him. He's like don't really care like that... -_- But, at least he's proven fine now.... At least it is not as serious as I thought... :)

Please don't stop talking to me! I can't stand you not bothering me. I can't stand you not replying me. I can't stand you not caring about me. haha.... :P Please continue your goodness & sweetness to me...... :D Let me care for you too......... :P

He's injured!

I'm so worried for him.... How I wish I can be there for him when he was injured.... How I wish I can accompany him to the doctor hours later.... but i was not.... but i can't.... :(

Yet, one thing he shared with me just now makes me very jealous..... what did he mean???? Why does he always like to share such things with me? Make me jealous???

I'm super duper worried for him lo..... I really care for him..... but what can i do? I can't do much.... sob sob........ :(

God, please heals him! *Worried*

想他。。。

他对我很好，可是我们只是朋友。

我的心都给了他，融不下别人了。可是，我们只是朋友。

他只是出国两天，我却非常的想他。他只不过才刚离开新加坡两个小时多而已。。。

不知道为什么，他人不在新加坡，我觉得好寂寞，好空虚哦。。。好想他哦。。。

虽然我们还只是朋友。。。

我不知道我们将来会是怎样，但我知道我必须继续祈祷着我们心中要的答案。

一切只能慢慢来，不能急。我们彼此都需要时间去更了解对方与相处。。。

多点单独出去或许是好的吧。。。

星期三因为有你，我很幸福！我们面对面谈话是比较舒服了！

可能是因为我们想太多，刚开始，告白后的那些日子，我们是有多么的尴尬。我都不知道要如何面对你呢。。。想想那时候和现在比起，我们进展了一步。就算不是情侣，我们绝对会是很好的朋友。也许，这样也足够了？