"Sunday Sickness"

Sometimes I wonder why I have so many complicated thoughts in my mind. As I browse through other people's blog, I'll think to myself why can't I be as simple as them. The things that they wrote were so simple & direct. Then, what's in me? I don 't seem to be able to make things easy. Where do complicatedness comes from?

Every Sunday is like a complicated day. It is always this day that makes me thinks & reflects a lot of what had happened during the week. It can be quite annoying sometimes that I have to go through all these every week. I don't like the feeling. It is like a sickness that is kept holding on to me & I can't get it off me. If there's anything that happens that makes me feel stupid, embarrassed & etc., it'll stay in my mind for quite some time before I can throw it aside. (until someone or something reminds me of it again.) It's a terrible feeling like a sickness. I don't know who else has the same kind of experience as me. All I know is this has been part of my life for years. If you really wants to understand me, I think you'll have to first understand the complicated side of me. Even I till today, don't understand!

What is Monday's blues? Perhaps to me, Monday's blues is caused by my "Sunday's sickness". I don't like Sunday to come so soon but yet, Sunday is my Service day. (Contradicting feeling)

*To my beloved friends who are reading my blog & is concerned about me, don't worry about me. This is my blog. I'm just sharing my mind with you guys. I don't wanna hide so much that I feel I'm just a fake or an empty shell in this blog. If that's the case, what's the point of having a blog & yet, don't want to let others knows you at all. Thanks for the concerns anyway! It means you guys are reading my blog! I'm so glad about that! :D